I'm going to be real right now, some real talk. I'm having more than a difficult time continuing on with this project. It's always on my mind, but when I finally have the time to cook, I feel too tired to do so or life gets in the way. I made a commitment to do this project and to complete it, but it's not looking so hot right now. I have a huge social studies unit plan (5-8 lessons within the unit) to complete, and I haven't even selected a topic yet. My garage (aka the laundry room) still looks like a topographic map with mountains of clothing screaming to be washed. Every room in my house (no joke) is in need of some serious cleaning. My kitchen is still a disaster from last night's cooking. I'm not going to lie; I feel more than a little overwhelmed. It's humbling and humiliating to admit that I "may" have taken on a project that I'm not capable of completing at this time in my life with all of the other stuff my family and I have going on. I got the word out about my project to help motivate me to complete it, and now public humiliation isn't even enough to keep me on track. I'm only human, blah, blah, blah....
I'm a big believer in signs, and I'm looking for one right now. One that will tell me it's worth it to keep my life in this constant state of chaos for a project that I created myself and am pressuring myself with every second of the day. I don't want to be a failure or a loser; that's the last thing in this world that I want. Maybe I should have chosen a cookbook with less recipes? Maybe I still can? The Barefoot Contessa cookbooks look wonderful and have 200 or so recipes, down to earth, real recipes for real people. Maybe I should continue with one of Ina's cookbooks? I could still keep my September 1, 2010 deadline and not be so stressed. A few hundred recipes is way more realistic in one year than over a thousand. What do you think?
By the way, here are my gingerbread cookie pumpkins...
Gingerbread cookies
MELISSA
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